Sunday

They’d say he was a fine man, a hero. Lucky too. A finger lost at Tobruk, a shard of Panzer shrapnel on a Normandy beach, an angry cutlass that still itched seventy years on.

When the boys were small, they’d run their fingers down the crimson furrow from brow to chin, as he told tales of Bren guns and night raids, but never mentioned the friends cut down around him as he stumbled through gorse while fate spoiled the sniper’s aim. Sometimes he’d weep and demand to know why he’d been spared when better men had not. As his mind had gone, the stories stopped but the brothers still loved their Grandpa.

In the Brookes household, weekends were special. And they would all remember this Sunday, this warm, blue Sunday, taking an old-fashioned breakfast together.

‘Should we tell him?’ Hillary whispered to her husband. Her father, medals pinned to his pyjamas and gleaming in the early June sun, gazed into yesterday, oblivious to the chatter around him.

‘What’s the point?’ her husband replied, reaching beneath the tablecloth to unlock the hands that lay in white knuckled despair on her lap. ‘The letter said it’s spread to the liver, it may be a couple of weeks, a month at best.’

Neither spoke as the boys bickered over the last sausage. ‘He’s not going back’ she blurted, more loudly than she’d intended. ‘He’s ours and we’ll care for him here.’

Liam spoke up, his voice wavering. ‘Mum, is Grandpa going to die?’

Still in Primary yet quicker than his older brother, thought his mother, wrestling with the dilemma of truth. Was she a coward or did she just treasure their innocence too much? It would be gone soon enough, just as her dreams of somewhere in the country and a decent income had ebbed away like the blood in the veins of their marriage.

‘Well he’s ninety isn’t he, it’s a great age and he’s very happy. Who knows, he could keep going for years!’ She saddened herself with the lie and changed the subject. ‘Why don’t you two put the tent up and sleep outdoors tonight?’
They were gone in an instant, brothers in arms on a mission.

The commotion stirred the old man, cloudy grey eyes peering into the face of the stranger beside him as he struggled to speak. ‘Late again for … school, are they?’

They’d given up long ago trying to reason with him. Better to let him live in his world, not ours, she’d thought and then, gently ‘Dad, let’s get you set up in the greenhouse and you can water the plants for me.’

He turned slowly, painfully, in his chair, giant wrinkled hands resting on the table, hands that had pushed her swing, mopped the tears when her rabbit had died, gave her away at St Giles. Her eyes welled as she helped him down. ‘Please God, don’t let him suffer’ she repeated silently to herself, surprised when he turned to stroke her face, muttering ‘Thank you Enid, you’re a grand wife.’

The garage was huge with a vast loft running its length, stuffed with the precious, abandoned detritus of generations. The boys loved it up there, loved the dark damp corners that harboured monstrous spiders, the musty smells, the mountains of dusty crates and boxes that lay locked and untouchable.

‘Where’s the tent then?’ called Gary from the depths, burrowing through piles of paint cans and timber, torch gripped between his teeth. A pause, and then excitement. ‘Wow, look at this!’

The younger boy scampered over to join him. ‘It’s an Army box, look, on the side … ‘Brookes, A.S., Corporal 14378291’. Must be Grandpa’s!’

They knew they shouldn’t have opened it and it took some effort, but finally they raised the heavy steel lid. Inside lay a treasure trove of khaki belts, boots, rusting bayonets, a crumbling rubber gas mask, letters bound in pink ribbon.

And asleep at the bottom, a clip of five long rifle bullets.

There is a side to children unknown to their parents. A risk-taking hand of curiosity that guides loving sons to explore and experiment, smothering in a moment all conscience, danger or guilt. Later they would say they didn’t know why they did it.

Gary had the idea. ‘Kevin Tims brought one to school last year, it’s a ‘303’. He said you can fire ‘em with a nail and hammer, his cousin did it.’

Liam drew back, his face pale in the weak pool of torchlight. ‘Isn’t that dangerous?’ he asked, his voice small.

‘Not if we’re careful, come on!’

It wasn’t difficult. The workbench had a giant vice bolted to its side into which Gary slid the cold, ancient brass sleeve. With the heavy lead tip pointing at the old oak doors, he carefully wound the vice handle until the cartridge, long as a man’s finger, a grandfather’s finger, sat snug in its jaws.

Later, Liam would say that he’d found the nail but wished he hadn’t. Gary would admit that it was he who’d lifted down the hammer from the tool shelf. They’d argued over who would hold the nail, who would hit it. In the end, the hammer proved too heavy for the smaller boy and Gary took it. ‘Yes, I swung it’ he’d weep.

‘But they were boys, just little boys’, their father would tell the inquest.

A woman at the Post Office remembered hearing it, just after the church bell struck ten. Their mother heard the bell too, as she stretched to peg out wet sheets, might have heard the hot lead tear free from oak planks and hiss through the hedgerow, its presence far ahead of sound.

Later, she’d find two neat holes in her blouse where it grazed her arm and carried on its half-second journey to the greenhouse.

He didn’t see the sniper. They say you never do. But as Corporal Albert Selwyn Brookes left all pain behind, a lifetime of guilt slipped from his shoulders.

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